Letting go: Step 1

2 weeks before school starts. what a drag! but i am sure its going to be a blast, it has to be.

OMG OMG!! I am giving up 2 weeks in Dubai for school, ok?!?!?! Now, am i crazy or what! Yes, it would have been a fully paid trip to Dubai; of course i will be working but it would be fun work. Photoshoots, shows, dinners, etc!!! I would make sooo much money! but i can't! why? cos school would have started, and i can't miss the first week of school. Bummer!

i've been doing a lot of thinking about life, the people around me and those who mean something to me. it's time to let go! this is the new lesson God wants me to learn. And big guy, its a dang hard lesson, to learn! Letting go of the past, not forgetting the memory of it, but letting go of it and accepting it for what it was.

Growing up; becoming an adult, isn't easy on me or my parents. it's a time for big adjustments and changes. i don't fancy change that much, but i will adapt as i always do. people change to adapt to their surroundings and the people they engage. it just what we do!

i have to say, it has been a good life so far. i have been blessed in so many ways. All the challenges God has sent me, allows me to grow and to realise what my purpose in life is. Yes! i think i know what i want to be when i grow up, finally.

just for my heather!

so, this weekend was very interesting. there's construction going on right in front of my house; they're building a new condo. and this weekend, they delivered a fruit hamper with a not saying, "Dear Owner, We apologise for all the incovenience caused." And they haven't even completed construction! Ain't that a sweet gesture, it makes you feel thought of, very good management!

working has taken a toll on my body. so ashley and i went for a long overdue massage. and we are contemplating going back for one more!

so today was IS enrolling day, which i almost forgot about, thank God heather reminded me last night! So i got photography and some psychology of creativity thing. hopefully i will find out whether i should seriously pursue photography or just forget it all together. class is at 8am though which is going to be a real head bagging against wall experience.

i can't wait to get my pay and umm.. hmm... i need to clean my room cos i think my organised desk has become heap of stuff now. ok thats it loves!

revelations

you learn a lot from people, you learn a lot from observing people, you learn a lot just being a person. but most importantly you learn to keep yourself in check every now and again. life is never easy, its not suppose to. we're suppose to make mistakes and learn from them. i think daddy knows that i need to make my own mistakes to learn. well, the past half year has been very very interesting. not as drama as year 1, but it was interesting. working with new people, a new class, new dynamics, new circle of friends, stronger bonds with the old friends. we've all grown up in our own way. i've learnt that some people choose to live their life a certain way and will do so no matter what anybody says or does. its just the way they are. they choose to only see it one way and there's no room for negotiation. i'm excited. everything is going as planned. i'm very excited to see what life has in store for me next. i'm sure i will complain about it along the way. but it excites me to have some direction, to know that there are so many doors open to me! i have all i need right now. i have my family, my friends and ashley. that's all i really need, oh! and i have myself! ahhhh!!! so exciting! ok i miss my babyy! but he's busy working hard so yupp! to the weekend!!!!!!!!